Look Up

Look Up

Just the slightest movement

But it caught my eye

Caught my attention

Drew me out of the self focused

Self centered

Self driven moment I was in

My head lifted

My senses heightened

My world expanded

Open to new possibilities

Open to new

My attention to me faded into nothing

My focus turned

The one transformed to many

The mundane

Turned to joy

The usual

Turned to extraordinary

Time stopped as I drifted

To this new reality

Unfolding around me

My senses connected fully

The smells

The sounds

The sights

All become part of me

As I glanced up

At the slightest movement

That swaying in the  wind

My world changed

Because my head lifted

Look Up – Lessons from the Monkeys

Look Up

     I am sitting here watching a dozen or so spider monkeys play in the tree tops here in the rainforest in Costa Rica. I guess I don’t really know if they are playing — but from my vantage point it does look like fun. Swinging from branch to branch — leaping in the air, flying along the tree tops. The baby bouncing alongside her momma. I am actually totally enthralled by this scene. Capitvated. I find myself sitting here just watching and I realize that there is a smile on my face. There is joy in my heart watching God’s creation just be exactly who they are supposed to be.

     And two things strike me.

     First, I would seriously have missed this all had I failed to look up. I am happily sitting here by the turtle shaped pool as it finally cools down a bit — reading, writing and listening to some worship music. I could easily have sat here for the next two hours before dinner and never looked up from my book or notepad. And if I hadn’t looked up, I would have completely missed this little piece of joy I am experiencing right now.

     I think life is like that sometimes. We get so content going about in our normal routine, like sitting at a table reading a book and writing — that we miss the world in front of us. We miss all these amazing things God has for us — if we would only look up.

Isaiah 40:26 “Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: who created all these?”

Psalm 27:13 “I remain confident in this, I will see goodness in the Lord in the land of the living”

Philippians 2:1-4 “Therefore, if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from this love, if any common sharing in the spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of others.”

     What would you see if you looked up? Would you see a friend who is maybe withdrawn because he / she is hurting and struggling — who just needs someone to see them and care. Would you see some larger injustice in the world that God is calling you to attack — would you see the widowed, the poor, the orphan, the least of these? Would you see the person that you don’t really like to be around — really see them. See that the anger they display is just the only way they know how to be. Would you see that they still are a child of God — who He loves and cares for? Loved by the Father just as much as He loves you.  Needing someone to stick around long enough to break through that impossible, broken, hardened heart to find the hurt and to fill the hole with God’s love.

     What would you see if you stopped walking ( or sitting) blindly where God had you and looked up to where God wants to you be.

     What do I see? What are my monkeys?

     The second thing that strikes me is the joy I find in just watching God’s creatures be who they were made to be. I think we humans may be the only ones who get this wrong over and over again. I don’t recall ever seeing a dog try to be anything but a dog, or a fish trying to be a parakeet. These creatures know if they are supposed to swim in the ocean or wag their tail when scratched behind the ears. They know if they are to fly high in the sky or to rule the jungle. They know if they are supposed to waddle or quack, meow, roar, slither, soar, or yes — even pop effortlessly from branch to branch in the trees.

     Wouldn’t it be great if we could know just as easily what we were called to be. If we knew where our feet were supposed to go, what our lives were supposed to look like.

The only way us living breathing, thinking, choosing imperfect human race can get there is to stop thinking and choose to let God be our instincts. Let God guide us and tell us where to fly, step, leap or even be still.

Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”

Romans 12:1-2 “Therefore I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God — this is true worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is. His good, pleasing and perfect will”.

2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: the old is gone and the new is here”

     All this because I took a second and looked up.

     Look up next time you find yourself content — see what God has waiting for you — dancing in the tops of the trees.

Quiet

Quiet

Time moves slowly

Seemingly standing still

While the miles fly by

On the ground down below

With each moment

With the miles disappearing behind me

The world melts away

My breathing easier

My heart rate slower

My pulse quieter

My mind hushes

The pains that have attacked me

The worry

The fear

The stress

All left behind me

With each moment in the sky

Unplugged

Unwound

Refreshed

Quietly able to refocus

Refilter

Refall in love with my God

Who has been quietly waiting for me

Defeating Alone

Defeating Alone
Alone is vulnerable
Alone is dangerous
Alone
The voices you hear destroy you
Push you
Further into the dark
Into despair
Into a walking waking nightmare
Alone is death
 
Life was not meant
To be tackled alone
A thread is easily broken by itself
But braided with others
Its strength multiplies
 
Together is powerful
Together is security
Together
The voices that attack you
Are silenced
Defeated
Together
Darkness is flooded with light
Together
Hope and joy dance in the storm
 
When the world tells you you cannot
Together holds you up
And tells you you can
When impossible blocks your path
Together breaks down the wall
Clears the rubble
And walks you through
Together holds your hand through fear
Together holds your heart through pain
Together dries your tears through sorrow
When you fall lost into utter darkness
Together shines the rescue light
Together laughs with you
Celebrates your wins
Big and small
Shares your table
Together makes a house a home
Together takes broken and creates family
 
Fight back against alone
Let together into your life
There are people who matter to you
People you have been entrusted to care for
To care about
People who are fighting alone
Don’t let any one of them
Exist outside of your together
 
 

Living in the Sunset

Anyone who knows me (and probably anyone reading this blog) knows that I love sunsets. They are my favorite thing in nature. I love them no matter where they are, though I have a very special place in my heart when they happen to be over an ocean. In my life I have seen some particularly amazing ones.

On the rooftop deck of a small hotel in Florence.

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A year later at Michaelangelo’s Point also in Florence.

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San Francisco, San Diego, and Ireland

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New York City

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The bush in the Limpopo Province of South Africa

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Sunset Beach / Table Mountain in Capetown South Africa

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And I even got to fly right into one in an airplane

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To me, the sunset is God. It is His personal artwork done new every day. Never the same two days in a row. Never the same for different people even when standing right next to each other. Each one has its own colors, patterns, passions. Each one brings a different emotion, a sense of peace, a sense of being wrapped in the greatest gift of life. Being wrapped warmly in the glow of God’s love and grace. The light of the world dancing on everything it touches. Throwing its patterns and life even in the darkest shadows.

Recently, I posted on a social media site about a  great day with the hash tag #livinginthesunset. Someone said to me “what does that even mean?” Well, let me tell you.

Living in the sunset is fully living in the world God has placed me in. It means giving all of me to join the dance of God’s light in the world – letting that light shine from deep within me and letting it touch everywhere it can reach. Even the darkest shadows. It means walking every great day, every bad day, and every day in between warmly held in the glow of God’s great love for me and His totally undeserved, unwarranted, unmerited grace. Living thankful for the blessings and the challenges — thankful for each and every color that blends together to create this journey I get to walk.

It means knowing God, praising God, serving God, and thanking God through my actions for every moment of my life because I was fearfully and wonderfully made just as each new day is — and each new sunset is. It means living this life knowing I am God’s favorite. How could I not be – He creates a new and glorious masterpiece for me each and every day.

Redefined

Redefined
I looked at life through other peoples eyes
Their picture
Their definition
They told me what was
They defined what should be
I jumped fully into their restriction
Their box
Bolted in
Beaten down
When living, breathing, moving life didn’t fit
Didn’t comply with what should be
According to them
Their image
Twisted, distorted
Like a fun house mirror
Making me feel a lack
Making me feel like something was wrong
With me
With my world
Until wisdom
Shattered their glass
My world is not theirs
My definition
Does not have to be theirs
Redefining my world
To the greatness that is already me
Freedom
No longer bound by them
But living me

Yes, That is My Pastor

Yes, that man with all the tattoos and the hair and the high tops and the skinny jeans is my pastor. And that one too! Yes – I know they don’t look like what the world expects… I am not even sure if they own more than one suit. But then again, I don’t really remember the scriptures telling me my pastor had to look like any picture society has created. Then again, I imagine the disciples probably had to regularly say yes, that is my rabbi, my teacher, the one hanging out with the tax collectors and sinners. Yes, he did in fact sit at a well in Samaria and share a cup with a woman of ‘questionable’ past. Yes, the one that heals people – heaven forbid – on the Sabbath.

See, I don’t think good leaders in the church are good leaders because they “look” like good leaders – or because they “act” like good leaders.

1 Timothy 3:1-7 “If anyone wants to provide leadership in the church, good! But there are preconditions. A leader must be well thought of, committed to his wife, cool and collected, accessible, and hospitable. He must know what he is talking about, not be overfond of wine, not pushy but gentle, not thin-skinned, not money hungry. He must handle his own affairs well, attentive to his own children and having their respect. For if someone is unable to handle his own affairs, how can he take care of God’s church? He must not be a new believer, lest the position go to his head and the devil trip him up. Outsiders must think well of him, or else the devil will figure out a way to lure him into his trap.”

That is my pastor.

I don’t care if he has tattoos – I care that he is focused first on God, second on his family. I care that he loves his wife and children — and that they love and respect him back. I care that when he speaks from the bible, I can study and check and find confirmation in his teaching. I care that people in the church much more grounded in scripture than I, hear him and respect him. I care that those we should be focused on in this world, the lost and hurting, have access to him and are drawn to the Jesus that shines in the way he lives his life. I care that no matter how “manly” me might appear – he is moved to tears when talking about people who don’t know the love of Jesus in their heart, or when talking of friends taken too soon from this life.

That is my pastor.

He is not perfect, I would be highly suspicious of one who “is”. I know everyone will not understand, not everyone will like him. And that is ok – everyone should find for themselves a church leader who is grounded in biblical teaching, who puts God and Jesus front and center in every part of his life – who inspires people rooted / planted in the house of God to serve and grow and even question and challenge. And who they can proudly say of, “Yes, that is my Pastor”. If that doesn’t look like him to you, that is ok.

But for me, he is my pastor and I am thankful to God for this church where I can plant, root, learn, grow and serve — all while fixing my eyes on Jesus!

Lioness

Lioness
 
He leads the pride
But she is not complacent
She follows his guidance
But takes her role
With strength and integrity
She uses her skill
Her cunning
Her gifts
To provide for her family
To protect her young
She moves majestically
Stands alongside her sisters
Works hard
And rests easily
She leads from a place of service
She finds her place in the plan
Embraces it
Owns it
Without needing to show it
Without the need to be the lead
Without taking away from
His leadership
His love
She is strength
She is beauty
She is exactly who God
Defined her to be

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Tree of My Life

Tree of My Life
The years have grown me
Strong and steady
I have been beaten and weathered
By storms
Attacks
From inside and out
But every notch
Every loss
Every cut
Has built the character that stands as me today
Unique
Imperfect
Proud
I have not flourished on my own
Others have danced this dance
Some blown in on the wind
Resting on my limbs
Here today, gone tomorrow
Some taking more from me
Than they left
Some that have grown with me
Spread out their arms
Branches far reaching
Always there
Sometime in bloom
Sometimes dormant
But always decorating my memory
The eclectic artwork that is me
But my strength
My ability to stand true and tall
And those who have rooted me
Who as I grow taller
More majestic
Grow with me
Keep me planted
Intertwining their strength
Their wisdom
Their love
With the fullness of me
Without them
I would surely fall
With them
I can face the wind
That keeps me growing
To touch the sky
And decorate the world

Chasing Sunsets

Chasing Sunsets
My picture of perfection
Of God
Of Love
Everything melting together
Unsure where one ends
And one begins
Warm and open and free
It is God in my world
In my senses
In my full being
And I become part of the picture
Part of the purpose
Part of the melding
Molding
Beauty
Dancing in the world
Touching those who are still chasing
Broken
Lost
Hurt
Hopeless
Chasing a filler for their emptiness
But missing the sunset
While lost in everything else
Empty promises
That leave the sky dark
Despairing
Desperate
Keep chasing
But chase the only thing that that will fill the void
Chase the sunset
And when you join it
Dance in the world
Dance with God

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