Star

There is a star that dances
On all that I see
In twinkling lights
Children’s eye
Skating rinks
Love’s promised rings
Floating in flakes falling from the sky
Rising in warmth
From crackling fires
Swirling in mugs of hot chocolate
It is there in the feasts
And tumbling among friends
It is bright in every family bond
It is ringing in laughter
Standing in memories of years gone by
In traditions passed down
In traditions starting new
It sparks when hands connect
And delights in each embrace
As I slow
And breathe
And take in the season around me
That star
Everywhere
The shine of hope
The spark of peace
The light of love
Born first
In a star that defied the darkness
A child born
A life for every heart
The star
Dancing in the world

This Life

What is this life
A circle
Moving perpetually
No end
No beginning
A line
A series of lines
Each end
A new start
What is this life
A dancing
Tumbling
Roaring
River of events
Some quiet
Some crashing against stones
All leaving their marks
This life
Whatever it is
It is the life you have
The only one
The gift
And each new day
Dawns with hope
Anticipation
Light breaking the darkness
As the excitement
Of what can be
Breaks on the horizon
Chase each day
Dance boldly in the light
As the new year bursts in
Stand tall
In hope
In the possible
Whether you continue in loop
Or jump to a new line
New beginning
Shine
In this life
This gift from God
Shine
In all that can be
All the dreams
That are left to be dreamed
And the reality
Yet to come true

Beauty and Beast

The world explodes
Beauty and beast
Anger and love
It is toppled
Mashed
Crushed
It is confused
Creation
Distorted from Creator’s vision
Images
Twisted
What happened to us
Why are we so far
We have the answer
The blueprint
The plan
He gave us a guide
Map
To the creation
He intended
It seems so simple
Yet we have found ourselves lost
So far from the path
In an orbit
Spinning madly
Mindlessly
On fire
Surrounded by an inferno
Fiery blaze
But in total darkness
Blindness
Noise roaring all around
Deafening
In a world
Moving crazily
Out of control
Senses overwhelmed
Breathless
Beaten
Battered
Broken shards of the world
Flying from every direction
Hopeless
How have we come this far
Not what it is supposed to be
Screaming helplessly

But wait
Breath
Center
Step out of the spin
Look in
Into the darkness

Rays of light break through
Kindness
A strange hand offering help
Hope
Love
The lost taken in
The homeless
Given shelter
The orphan
In a family
Light
In the madness
We get lost
In the light
We can see
It is not lost
The image
Breaks through
There is hope
He is hope
He is the anchor to the spin
Healing hearts
Holding hands
Loving
When all seems unlovable
Forgiving
The unforgivable
Forgiving me
Rays of light
Fighting back
Against the night
Stepping out
To live different
To shine
Instead of give in
To shine
Instead of hiding His light
Slowly
We turn back the black
Hardened
Angry night
With our small
Individual
Hope filled reflections
Of His light

What Ifs

History
Mystery
Reality
Rewind
Rebound
Back then, then now
What was
Is
What is
Was
We keep trying to make it better
By taking out the bad
After
But never think
Where the bad took root
Bandaids
Stop the bleeding
But the pain explodes again
The minute your rip it off
You can put on inferno out
But the destruction remains
The damage is done
The price is paid
But what if
What if we loved
What if we chose different
What if we take away the fuel
So the fire never starts to burn
What if
What if we take a different path
What if we stand against the wind
Instead of giving into it
What if
We step out of the storm
No longer accept drowning
As an acceptable solution
What if
What if we are the difference

Sunset Beach

The place where all my dreams land
Where happiness
Home
Love
Swirl in all my senses
Perched
My own place
Overlooking your wonders
The oranges and reds
Breaking out in fiery explosions
Merged into the blues
As night’s darkness dances in
The wind blows around me
Envelopes every part of who I am
In this moment
Embraced
As you sing for me
The crashing sound of your waters
As they journey to and from
Every moment new
Every sense
Completely
Totally you
Let my senses dance forever
Here with you
But the light fades
Night breaks in
I return to the real
But there is always another dance
Waiting
In the light of tomorrow

Create a World of Hope — How You Can Help!

Once again I have been blessed with an opportunity to faithfully answer God’s call in my life. This July, I will be embarking with a team to Cape Town, South Africa with Horizon International. The mission of Horizon International is to “Create a World of Hope” for children adversely affected by the ravages of HIV/AIDS. Horizon International is a non-profit organization dedicated to caring for orphans affected by HIV/AIDS. We serve these orphans and their communities regardless of religion, race, ethnicity, or gender, enabling them to break the cycle and live free from the bonds of poverty and disease. To learn more about Horizon International, why they are doing the work they do and about the different programs they offer, visit their website www.horizoninternationalinc.com.

Horizon is committed to helping us here become aware of and engaged in the battle for the lives of the millions of children in Africa who have been marginalized and who suffer due to the pandemic of HIV/AIDS. One of the vital aspects of educating people about this is Short Term Mission Teams. As a member of a Short Term Mission Team, I will be working with Horizon to come alongside local partners in Cape Town providing needed labor, materials and most importantly presence, love and hope to the children most often abandoned, forgotten and neglected.

There are many ways you can get involved and help support this critical mission without joining a Short Term Mission team. You can sponsor a child, ensuring they receive the basic necessities like food and education (for more on child sponsorship or to sponsor a child, visit the Horizon International Website). You can also support our Short Term Mission Team through financial donation and / or prayer support.

You can engage with me through financial giving and / or prayer support. Donations are tax deductible and enable us to purchase needed materials and resources in support of the local partners. Donations can be made by check or on line through the Horizon International website http://horizoninternationalinc.com/ – select Give Hope, Donate, and enter the amount and Designation (Go Team, Amber Stephenson Cape Town) under the “Give to Other” header. If you do give on line, please let me know so that I can ensure the funds reach the correct Go Team and so I can keep you updated and thank you for your engagement in this mission. Checks can be mailed to me, payable to Horizon International and should include “Amber Stephenson / Cape Town” in the comments section.

Prayer support is just as critical to the success of our mission as financial support. When we travel with prayer protection and support from home, our team is greater and we are able to accomplish so much more! Even if you are not able to financially or prayerfully support this Cape Town Short Term Mission Team, I would love to hear back from you and will gratefully share with you the work that we will accomplish with “the least of these”!

Thank you for being part of my life and for your support and love

Smash the Clouds

I read a story the other day about a man who had it pretty bad by the world’s standards – a true ‘when bad things happen to good people’ kind of story. He was an incredibly wealthy man who used his fortune to help people in need – giving to the poor, defending people who could not defend themselves and becoming like a father to the fatherless in his community. He raised decent kids who seemed pretty content and who got along with each other – regularly dining together – and he worried over them like any good father would. But his entire world crashed in. All his wealth was stolen from him. In an unforeseeable, unavoidable, tragic fire all his children were killed. And he was stricken with illness that didn’t take his life but made his life basically unbearable. I read this story and think how unbelievably bad this was; I think if I was this guy I really don’t know how I would even get to the next moment. His life seemed all out hopeless.

The other day I had an emoji cup of coffee transformed to hot chocolate by a friend. I was complaining about the lack of the right emoji’s when I wanted them and he sent that cup of coffee back and said we could choose to make it hot chocolate – we could see it however we wanted. It was our power in how we chose to see what was in front of us. This was a complete and total game changer.

In the bible, David is a great example of someone who chose to see things God’s way instead of the world’s. The Israelite army (the world) shook in fear and hid from the giant Goliath. David saw God’s victory and as a pip-squeak sized shepherd boy – took out the giant with nothing more than a sling shot and a river rock.

1 Samuel 17:23-24 “As he was talking with them, Goliath, the Philistine champion from Gath, stepped out from his lines and shouted his usual defiance; and David heard it. Whenever the Israelites saw the man, they all fled from him in fear.”

1 Samuel 17:45-47 “David said to the Philistine, ‘You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head this very day. I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves, for the battle is the Lord’s and He will give all of you into our hands.”

David faced what the world feared based on worldly standards of the chance of survival – and he looked instead from the security and confidence of God’s victory. He chose to look at the giant differently. He chose to look at the unconquerable as already conquered because he knew God was greater. David never faltered. He even discarded the king’s armor, it didn’t fit right and he knew he didn’t need it anyway – he was already looking at the giant from God’s victory instead of the world’s defeat.

If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”  ~ Wayne Dyer

How much could we change in this world if we chose to look at things through God’s victory – through God’s eyes instead of the worlds.

Acts 20:24 “However, I consider my life worth living to me, my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.”

We are all in a race – but it is not won by the world’s standards. Winning is not about crossing the finish line first. Winning is not about being the one to break the ribbon. We are in a race we can all win; there is not one gold medal but unlimited eternity. It is all in the way that we choose to look at the course we are on and the people running around us in our world.

For a large part of my life, I defined myself by the world’s view point. My worth was tied to what I did – my job… my title. My worth was tied to who I knew, how popular I was, or how many guys I could get to “love’ me. My view was definitely the world’s view – and I was not even in the race God had laid out before me. I was lost and empty, I could find no victory or value because I wasn’t even in the game. The way I chose to see myself and my word was clouded by the world and therefore I was clouded. I kept striving for all the things that the world kept telling me was important. More money, more success, more education, more friends, more guys… MORE! More of everything except the only thing that had any real value. And my clouded vision affected the way that I saw everything. My job was someplace I had to show up, perform and survive the people around me. Guys were the only way I could find “love”. I didn’t see value in myself, didn’t believe I was worth the best, so I had to give up a lot of myself just to get good enough for the moment. Everything in front of me – even the successes – was so darkened by the way I chose to see life that my whole world was dark.

I have flown a lot in my life. I actually really enjoy it – seeing God’s creation from a distance. With all that time in the sky I have learned a lot about vision in clouds. When the plane takes off and starts to climb – it doesn’t take long before we begin to encounter clouds. Often they start small, puffs that come here and there. But then you go all in, the whole plane is in the middle of clouds and you can’t see a thing. It is the part of the flight I don’t like. I wonder how the pilot can possibly see anything – how he/she can know what they are flying into – and I start to feel closed in. I am closed in by my inability to see beyond the fuzzy cloudy distortion outside my window.

But then…

We break out. And once we have broken free of the clouds, all I can see is brilliant, blue sunshine filled light. This light brings me back to a place of security and freedom. I don’t see anything below me, but I find I don’t need to see it. Happiness is just being fully inside that clear light. That is where the joy in this life comes… just as the plane breaks through into real light – no longer distorted by the clouds – so did I. I encountered Jesus and I took a whole new way of thinking and living into my heart. Light broke into my world and shattered the clouds that had been distorting my vision. My life was no longer about all the “mores” the world demanded. I entered the race I was intended to be running all along; everything for one goal, one winning end – testifying the grace of God. It is the only task I have been given – and to focus on that task is to enter God’s purpose for me… and to win.

My job is no longer something to be endured but instead is the course that God has placed me on to bring His kingdom to earth – to testify to His amazing grace to the coworkers that surround me. It is a place where I can let my life, my work, my integrity shine God’s light to draw others to His grace. Sickness is no longer hopeless but an opportunity for God’s miracles and healing to occur and where God’s light can bring testimony of His grace to those waiting and watching. I choose now to see the world around me free of the clouds – bathed in the bright light found only when I smash through the clouds. I choose to see the world and the giants it tries to throw in my path the way David choose to look at Goliath, firmly, confidently, through the eyes of God’s grace and victory that is already won.

If you have never read the story of Corrie Ten Boom – a Dutch Christian who save many Jews during WWII and ended up in a concentration camp as a result – you should. It is an awe inspiring story. One part I have heard in many talks was all about fleas. Yes, fleas! Corrie and her sister ended up in a dorm at the concentration camp that was infested with fleas – her sister insisted that – as instructed in God’s word – they should be thankful for everything — including the fleas. She looked at the fleas through God’s victory instead of seeing them through the itchy, uncomfortable, infestation of clouds. Turns out, their dorm was left completely unsupervised — none of the guards would enter it. They wouldn’t enter it because of the fleas. And because they were left alone, Corrie and her sister were able to boldly hold bible study and share Jesus’ word with the women in their dorm. Turns out, God’s victory was right there in the fleas!

What fleas are invading your life? What clouds do you need to break free from — to break free to see the clear light of God that enables you to see His victory where the world keeps shouting defeat? Where can you choose to look at people or situations differently than the world?

1 Samuel 16:7 “But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘do not consider His appearance or His height, for I have rejected Him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Don’t see the outward appearance of material things. Don’t see the outward appearance of anger, addiction, depression or sin. Don’t see the outward appearance that the world labeled you – or others around you – with.

Choose to smash the clouds.

Choose to look through God’s eyes – look at the heart that with God – even in the dark world – is victory. Choose to look at the heart that with God – even in the trials and failures – is victory. Remember that even in the very worst – you can choose to see the very best.

That guy I started this story with – chances are you have actually already heard of him. His name is Job, and even in the middle of absolutely everything going agains him – even as he questioned why him and was crying out to God who he felt had abandoned him – even in the worst of the worst… he clung to the victory and glorious grace of God. He never became clouded by the world’s vision (and the even more clouded vision of his not-so-helpful friends). But he kept clinging – kept choosing – to see through God’s light and power. That light held what was the victory for Job.

Job 42:12 “The Lord blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the former part…”

Smash the clouds.

Choose to see in the light. The victory is already won.

My goal is to create a metaphor that changes our reality by charming people into considering the world in a different way.” ~ Chuck Palahniuk

Surprise

Surprise me
With your layers
Each new discovery
So different than expected
Hard
Yet not
In the world
But not of it
An orchestra
Full of rhythm
And melody
Not just a single beat
The difference
Intriguing
A mystery
I keep turning the pages
And discovering parts of the character
I could never have foreseen
New twists
Exciting
A story I don’t want to end
Surprise me
Entice me
To keep discovering
Keep uncovering
Treasures
Buried deep
But not lost
Or forgotten
Surprise me
For in the surprise
Is wonder
And happiness

Lens

Open eyes
Open mind
Different vision
I see ordinary
Transformed into beauty
Mundane
Yo vibrant
Life
To pure joyous living
It’s in the filter
Changing the view
Looking
Just a little different
Different eyes
Looking at the same world
Seeing new
Instead of usual
Whole
Rise out of broken
Love
Flowing in tears
Beginnings
Exploding from endings
Change the lens
The perspective
Capture it
New life

Color a Song

I’m the songwriter and you are the artist who sings the song and adds color to it” ~ Leo Juarez

This is easily now my favorite quote – not just because it is pure poetry; but also because my friend wrote the words about our friendship and the way God uses us together to create something beautiful. This friend inspires me. In talking about our faith, or about life – or sometimes about nothing of any substance at all – he finds words that take me deeper into my knowledge of the majestic God we serve and love. I know our friendship is Christ centered and God orchestrated. It’s our amazing God who gives him the song – and our amazing God that helps me color it. Our amazing God is the common thread that takes our ordinary to extraordinary in the togetherness He created.

And as I have been writing this beautiful picture in my heart and mind – I realize just how great the ultimate artist is in bringing the perfect people in our lives. There are a lot of people around me every day, but only a handful I would call me core. They are God designed partnerships. They are not perfect people, but perfectly placed in my life for His plans. They are people who are not just around – they are part of who I am and who I am becoming; people whose words, actions, and lives impact my life. Together we mix and become something so much greater than individuals.

I look at the world around me and realize that this isn’t a unique concept, it is Gods MO. Colors mix together to create new and vibrant colors. Oxygen and hydrogen mix to create life sustaining water. Sun and rain mix together to create the lasting symbol of God’s promise – the rainbow. Chocolate chips and cookie dough mix together to create gooey, chocolaty happiness. Sparks and wood mix together to make a warm campfire – from which toasted marshmallows, chocolate and graham crackers mix together to create a campers dream – smores! Coffee grounds and hot water mix together to create heaven on earth… at least in my world!

Many things in this world mix together to create something exponentially better than the individual parts are by themselves. And these God friendships are very much the same – I am exponentially better because of and with these friends. It has always been God’s plan. After all, God Himself is not alone – Father, Son and Holy Spirit, each with their own role in the partnership.

2 Corinthians 13:14 “May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.”

He models what working with, fellowshipping with, fully entering into God ordained friendships and partnerships can bring into your world. In God’s word, He guides us to embrace His community in our lives.

Hebrews 10:24-25 “And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another – and all the more as you see the day coming.”

Proverbs 27:17 “As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.”

Romans 1:11-12 “I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong, that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.”

I love the friends God has brought into my life. Not just my friend who writes these songs I get to color with my pen; friends who each bring something different to my life, my faith and my growth. I have a friend who – certainly without knowing it – challenges me to see the people and the world around me in a completely different way. Every conversation I have with this friend surprises me. Each time I get to see the world around me through the different lens so natural to him, I am surprised.  In that surprise I realize how often I assume that what I see is the real picture when there is really something totally different I need to be open to; to get to know.

I have a friend who has a heart for people, especially for those most in need… for the least of these, the lost and forgotten. It is so much his heart that it is the work he is preparing for in life. Even in his extreme busy-ness, if I reach out to him in need he drops the ten million things I am certain he is doing and makes sure I am cared for until I am no longer in need. He checks in regularly. He often makes me feel like he has nothing else going on in his life even though I know that is not the case. From him I am learning what caring for other people the way God calls us to really looks like.

I have friends who have a huge passion and drive to learn, grow and share this faith we walk together. Times with them make me want to grow more deeply rooted to Christ. I love all these friends for so many reasons – and I am glad that I have been able to let God’s light shine through what we bring to the world together – so much more than any one of us alone.

“I cannot even imagine where I would be today were it not for a handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. Let’s face it; friends make life a lot more fun.” ~ Charles Swindall

The people in my life challenge me to be better. But you have to be careful because the wrong people feeding into your life can have the opposite effect.

1 Corinthians 15:33 “Do not be misled, bad company corrupts good character.”

Proverbs 24:24-25 “Do not make friends with a hot tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered, or you may learn their ways and get yourself ensnared.”

I speak that from experience. When I was surrounded by people who were not walking a life of faith, I was easily drawn into actions and behaviors, relationships and situations that I should never have been in. I lived a life dictated by the world and paid a heavy price. See… good or bad, the people you surround yourself with impact your life. The words they speak into and over your life are the voices that echo in your head. Be careful with the voices you let in. Ask God – He will surround you with people who will help your eyes, mind and heart seek Him.

Because really…

He is the best friend you could ever have. He is really the only friend that you really need.

Proverbs 18:34 “One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.”

As long as you are anchored to the best friend, you can rise to and conquer any trial, challenge, task and hurt that may come your way. Even hurt at the hands of those very friends you have let into your inner circle. Because no matter how great your friends are – they are still people… imperfect people. And imperfect people will sometimes fail us. But God never does.

Deuteronomy 31:8 “The Lord Himself goes before you, He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.”

Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous – do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

I thank God that He is truly all I need and that He will never leave or forsake me. And that He has surrounded me with people who desire Him as much as I do, and who each bring a unique and beautiful gift and perspective into my life.

Ask God.

He will give you the song writers for your life. Then all you have to do is lean in, open your eyes and your heart.

And color the song.

“A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same”  ~ Elbert Hubbard